It has become obvious to me that what I want isn't good enough if Brian doesn't want the same thing.
I know what I want, but my want isn't enough for the both of us.
There is nothing more I can say and I'm at a loss for what else I could do to convince Brian that our marriage is worth fixing.
I'm cutting the cord... the ball is in Brian's court now. It's up to him.

He's free to walk if that's what he wants to do.

I will always love Brian... after 11 years I just don't see how I couldn't. He has been an important part of my life and I would love for that to continue, but not at the expense of our happiness. God bless him in whatever his decision may be.